A mess

 This last week I have been a mess. Thank goodness for friends and family. Jeannie, Amanda and both sets of grandparents have been super helpful these past few days. They are always happy to entertain the little bean which is great as I have had fake contractions, a hospital visit to Labor & Delivery (which we were sent home from) and lots of pregnant mood swings. I'm super anxious to have this baby. My mind is just gone, yesterday at the hospital I couldn't remember my own birth date! I just have to tell myself it's all going to be ok, like...

- it's ok that I accidentally dropped my iphone into the toilet and it no longer works
- it's ok that the little bean had a peeing accident on the new carpet before her bath
- it's ok that the little bean had another peeing accident 10 minutes after the first one in our bedroom and that while I was running to get a towel Hugo licked it all up
- it's ok that her diapers are running so small that after wearing one for just a couple of hours she starts to tug on them and complain
- it's ok that I am going to only wear pajamas until I have this new baby because even my maternity clothes are getting too small.
- it's ok that I thought my water broke and made Peter come home from work and take me to the hospital while in reality I was just suffering from extreme pregnancy incontinence.
- it's ok that I refuse to leave my house and the few blocks around it these last few days because I have had such terrible pregnancy cramps and fake contractions
- it's ok that I can not leave the house without a stranger making some statement about my 'readiness' or 'torpedo belly'

I just have to focus on the new baby that is about to join our family. New baby, right now your mama is a mess! Please come soon.